I'm still loving this. And humbled.  

I will say, though, that a few months ago I endured a few weeks where my ambition stuttered. My flesh wanted air conditioning, a husband, and more help in this monumental task. I was selfish and asked (again) for God to show me some kind of blueprint for my next months and years. Not to my surprise I heard the answer, 'Do what I've called you to do today, and I'll take care of the future. You're not ready to know it yet.'

So I've immersed myself in making the most of the day. Stepped up my game. 

-  writing more specific and intentional language lessons for staff and neighbors I teach each week

-  created small, medium, and large professional and personal wish lists for the lab and waded right in

-  memorized 6 verses, which is feat for me, and woken up early (also a feat for me!) to enjoy quiet mornings with my creator before the day runs away from me

- took on 3 new ideas/projects regarding agriculture, sanitation, and carbon crediting

- became more intentional in certain situations

- and held staff mid-year evaluations

And with great results. Professionally, spiritually, socially. He's blessed and followed through on what He told me to do. Not too shabby of a team :) 

What do we have to lose? What will I say a few years from now? My time in Cambodia was "fun"? "Taught me a lot"? 

I want to say I was a person who offered to pray with people, and changed lives. That its not cliche to say Cambodia is a better place because of my obedience, but that we see changed hearts, homes with toilets, savings accounts started, neighbor kids that didn't drop out of school like the other 50%, and bigger dreams than continued poverty. 

At the risk of being cliche, try to pick out 1 or 2 people or situations you can help change around you. A potential divorce avoided. A teenager encouraged and trusted. A voice of hard love to a friend that doesn't know how to save/spend money. We all have a massive plate our Father wants us to handle on his behalf. Be that voice, or those hands.